davidinwanderlust

dancing. delicate. daring. deliberate. dreamer. deep. detailed. dynamic. dramatic. david. // A secondary blog to my Vision Board: rainbowsinmyclouds.tumblr.com
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TWENTY THREE.

"I pretend my hands
Are yours, but after I cum,
I still reach for you”

TWENTY ONE.

"Inside me I know
Stories wait to be told
If I’d only let go
They would unfold

I fear my own voice
So I stand in their way
I drown out the noise
In hopes they’ll delay

Deeper in me they’d crawl
If I had my druthers
But no time’s left to stall
They must be uncovered”

TWENTY.

"Old pathologies:
Why fight to keep those who do
Not want to be kept?”

4.22.14

"Jamaican" Escovitch Fish.

But not really because none of the markets here have the Caribbean spices I am used to.

It was still really good though.

I also fried some tomatoes in beer batter, but they didnt turn out so beautiful, so no photo.

I’ll try again and take a photo another time.

4.22.14

"Jamaican" Escovitch Fish.

But not really because none of the markets here have the Caribbean spices I am used to.

It was still really good though.

I also fried some tomatoes in beer batter, but they didnt turn out so beautiful, so no photo.

I’ll try again and take a photo another time.

NINETEEN.

"You earnestly kissed my cuts
As if doing so would mend my broken body
And lead me to self-worth and freedom”

EIGHTEEN.

"He tells me I am beautiful
As his fingers trace my frame

He’s not the one I’m longing for
But I cannot complain

He says the sweetest things to me
But still the truth remains

He tells me I am beautiful
And he does not know my name”

SEVENTEEN.

"You put your chain
Around my neck
With pride I’d never felt

Then you changed
And my heart wept
But I could not free myself”

4.18.14

I officially did the Danielle LePorte “Desire Map” worksheets. It took me about 8 hours over the course of two days.

Many tears were shed as I unearthed, no only how I want to feel, but also how far I am from my ideal state of feeling. I have totally missed the mark.

I’m not sure if I feel clear, whole, unbridled or radiant in any area of my life. Actually I know I don’t.

That hurts, but I’m glad I have the opportunity to face myself in this moment.

There’s second section where you put these into action and discuss some changes. Let’s see how that goes.

SIXTEEN.

"People come and they go
So why should I cry?
I’d just like to know
Are we saying goodbye?

Can we not call a truce?
Can we not try again?
You can tell me the truth
Am I losing a friend?”

FIFTEEN.

"He stares me down
Curiously
Over a plate of fish tacos
As I try to plan our fairy tale ending in my head

With feigned allure,
He politely inquires,

'So are you a top or a bottom?
I’m vers
So I can do whatever.’

His smile rehearsed and ravenous

I catch the flame
Reflected in his eyes
And my own reflection in the mirror behind him

Choices.
Habits.

Heart longs for intimacy
Body craves penetration

Midair collision
Between
My hope and
His lust
Sending my gaze to the floor
And his hand to my thigh

'I'd love to make my tongue
Dance
From your nipples
To your belly button.’

Look to mirror
Eyes sunken
Brows furrowed
Confused
Disappointed
Disillusioned

'My profile says
I’m looking for a relationship.’

'I've hurt others
And been hurt
I don’t like being in that space’

Return to mirror
Still here
Eyes still sunken
Hope still lost

'So
Where does that
Leave me?’

He laughs.

'Hopefully In my Mouth.'”